It's past 1 in the morning and I'm in my hotel lobby just loading the laundry into the dryer.. Now I gotta find something to do for another 30 minutes and I guess I'm stuck with you.
It has been ages since I've gone on a trip with my mum and it's my very first time in Hokkaido prefecture.
I just arrived this morning and spent a couple of hours at Chitose airport. The airport is so happening!! They have spa and all sorts of souvenirs and snacks and bentos and desserts!! We shared bentos with sea urchin, salmon aburi, pickled salmon, snow crab and ikura roe... I walked about and found the heavenliest cheese cake called Double Fromage Cheesecake. Super light and melts in your mouth! Also bought some milk tempura but found it too heavy.
Sorted through the itinerary over the week with my mum. Went shopping and found this lovely lovely shoe store called Odette e Odile. There were a few pairs of funky shoes just for someone like me but they were about 252,000 yen and I decided to buy a pair of black pumps instead for 9,975 yen. They're pretty classy but still... my funky soulmate expensive shoes!!! Sigh... why was I born with expensive taste??
We were tooo too hungry and went to have ramen at Susukino which is the nightlife area near my hotel.There's a super narrow alley just for ramen stalls and it was pretty cool. We found one that was crowded and shared a Hokkaido Special Miso Ramen (with butter corn, cheese, crab, scallop, chashu, minced meat miso), a XX-large Chashu Soy sauce Ramen and a plate of Gyoza.. Wow.. pretty much ranks up there in my list of best ramen I've ever had in my life! Soup broth was super thick and tasty and hot. Noodles were very springy and cooked just right. Wow I feel spoilt. I still have a few items on my food wishlist in Hokkaido. I aim to have a small box of milk everyday cos it's just too yummy!!!
There was a beer garden festival and several beer brands and events were taking up 6 blocks of a central park to do alfresco beer and food appreciation. Sounds awesome right??? But my mum and I got there when it just closed. :( Instead we went to a Victorian-style bar and had some dessert and I had my first cacao fizz (alcoholic chocolate flavoured soda).
I wish my baby boy was here to share all the excitement and yummy food with me. He came to see me before my flight yesterday and then he had to go home and have dinner with his family.. I got very moody and tantrumy around him and I feel bad that I have to affect his life negatively. I hope he didn't get into trouble with his wife cos he was rushing home. I keep thinking about him ever since he bid me farewell. His smile is so gorgeous. Oh gosh I miss him so very very much. I wish I could just cuddle with him and have a good laugh again. But I know I can't ignore the consequences. My mum was telling me about some of the religious restrictions in my hometown yet again and I just felt like I couldn't risk that.. if not for my future, then for my children's. I know I love him so so much despite how screwed up it all seems. I can sacrifice everything else to be with him.. but just not this issue. Sigh... I wonder if I will have the strength not to see him when I go back in 7 days. It is just so much easier not to trust in him and to move on rather than grapple at the impossible. I'm sick of trying to understand everytime he hurts me and giving way to his family all the time and not having my girlfriend needs met.
I'm so depressed about my weight right now. There are so many pretty, classy, fashionable and well-mannered girls here in Hokkaido and I feel super ugly and pathetic. I find it hard to fit into the clothes at the department stores. I sometimes wonder if Mr New came along he would just be tempted to be with every other girl except for me. I think they are just his type. Anyway, I should forget about him. The rest of my week is booked out mostly at traditional inns and hot springs overlooking great sceneries.. T'was a much needed holiday and I should just have a good time and I shouldnt miss out on the great food. Lets's hope my boss and the secretary can hold out without me for a little while!
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