My ex K called yesterday. It's been almost a year since we talked on the phone. But it was kinda weird. He asked me for advice and comfort for his current relationship. He compared his relationship with his current girlfriend with me and him. I don't know why he does that. But I wasn't too happy. Because it seems like he doesn't care about my feelings when I hear these things.
He kept asking me whether I had a good year. All the feelings flooded in and I burst into tears, telling him he has no idea what kind of year I had. I didn't tell him much though. I didn't wanna give him the satisfaction. I don't know why, after a year of struggling to restrain my memories and feelings toward him, it has to all come out now. I felt bitterness, sadness, anger with a hint of nostalgia and reminiscence.. and an empty hole.
I hope he doesn't call again. I don't really need to know about him if he's living his life well. I think some guys can be sadistic without realising it. I wish he wasn't so dumb. Shit, I'm crying.
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