Friday was the most awesome date I've ever had with Mr Limbo. I actually felt like he was all mine. Funky obscure breakfast cafe, going on the Singapore Flyer, shopping, spa, yummy dinner and sipping drinks listening to beautiful live music.
I was totally shagged Saturday.. Spent most of the day napping before heading out with my secondary school girlfriends for a night on the town. Wanted to text him or call him all day but was so afraid to interrupt his time with his wife and daughter. Was very lonely but it was manageable.
Had a massive headache right about 3am and went home early. Ended up watching some episodes of Criminal Minds until I felt like I was going nuts just like the psychopaths in the show.
I just can't sleep and it's 2pm now and I haven't eaten as well. I spent most of the day clutching myself or a pillow and sobbing my heart out. He seemed busy with family commitments and i dont think i should bother him even though i feel extremely lonely and depressed now. He was going on abt how beautiful his daughter had become.. It hurt a lot. I'm just an outsider and he so readily says his daughter has an attractive athletic physique. I mean of cos a dad would feel proud about his daughter. I don't know why I'm so silly to feel jealous because he started the relationship calling me fat and hurt me so readily. I feel worthless around him. I cant even have him when i need him most. I promised my colleague to go on a double date tomorrow but after that I really want him to leave me the hell alone.
I want to date someone new who has never hurt me before. There is no way this one can make me happy. Hope he just sticks with his family and stop saying stuff to me that he doesn't mean.
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