1. Dying my hair greenish-brown.
2. Great 4 course dinner at Ochre using a voucher. (Saved $70 and yet great service!)
3. Wearing a cute and elegant blue dress with white shawl and sparkly white shoes.
4. Finally getting my full leg, underarm and brazilian done.
Can't wait for my salary to pop in over the next few days. I've got heaps of things to pay off and nothing in my bank account as of now. And waiting for my cough to get better.
Mr New and I had a big fight. I just don't think we can do it anymore. I think my feelings have been fading for a while now.. probably ever since I realised I wouldn't want kids with him. I've been finding all sorts of excuses to break up with him and pointing out all the things I wasn't happy about. It's so difficult. I am still very attracted to him and sometimes I feel he's a gem. I just have to be myself and he would love me and have my best interests at heart. But I don't know. We've been dragging this thing for too long and I just don't see the point.
I just think he's much better off staying with his family rather than be with someone so fickle. I am sorry to feel this way and I will be very sad to let go of him.. but I am not as crazy about him as I was before and I don't miss him the way I used to. I'm kinda scared of losing him, of being alone.. but I feel so restricted. And I feel more beautiful alone. What's a girl gotta do?
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