Just got home from a presentation! Omg, just prepared a few hours before, reading research and all. I totally pulled it out of my arse back there haha.. I kept stalling in the middle of talking and telling him I'm too nervous. And he was like why? It's just me and you. Oh well.. glad it's over. He gave me some really good suggestions with my essay. Woohoo~
I feel so silly. I called J late last night and vented all my frustration and depression on him. He lectured me quite a bit and after calming down, I realised he had a point. It doesn't make me feel less suicidal but at least I know I shouldn't seriously consider this until after exams. I feel bad showing him my ugly side. Oh well, I don't feel anything talking to him except more reaffirmation that we're not suitable together. :) Quite thankful that he listened though.. Feel less alone.
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