Am I depressed?

Just got back to Singapore from my hometown.. Im like at the airport sitting on those low metal rails that prevent trolleys from knocking into the glass, having my first cigarette since Thursday.

The weekend was relaxing. It was good having the family together again. Helped my dad with his work and watched a lot of Korean drama. I was still sick so I didn't manage to exercise. But I kept feeling lethargic and my skin problem was making me so irritable.

I'm so worried now. I arrived and had no one to call to say that I was back in town. I couldn't possibly call Mr New. I was so upset and debating on whether to bother seeing him again.

Once I got past immigration, I checked myself into Macs and got myself a spicy nugget meal when I already had dinner on the plane, albeit a small one. I didn't realize it until I sat down with my tray. Omg, why? Why? I haven't had 2 dinners since like, last year? I think I'm out to drag myself down. Gosh, I've been putting off my exercising and just eating. I need to wake up early tomorrow and have a decent workout otherwise I can't forgive myself...

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